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Arc 7 – Farewell to that Senior Brother
Chapter 165

Back in his room, Chi Zhao sat on the bed silently. He laid down for a while and then sat back up again.

He was pondering over how he should act to appear sick more realistically.

Pretend that he has a headache? No, if he overdid it, it would easily become him complaining over nothing. Pretend to have a fever? But cultivators basically never have fevers and doing that was a bit difficult for him since he couldn’t adjust his own body temperature.

After thinking about it for a long time, Chi Zhao’s hand rubbing his teacup suddenly stopped.

No matter how he pretended, it was all fake and once he was exposed, the outcome wouldn’t be good. If he really was sick, then he wouldn’t be exposed.

Looking at the spirit sword on the side, Chi Zhao knew what he should do.

Chi Zhao clutched his arm, yelling in pain non-stop. Bright red blood flowed down his fingers. When the spirit sword cut into his flesh, he felt a momentary sharp pain but as soon as he thought that he could force Lin Changfeng to appear with this pain, the pain seemed to have disappeared. Looking at his bloody arm, Chi Zhao revealed a calm but strange smile.

Your body is a gift from our parents. The Chi Zhao before this would have never done this to himself. This stubborn and paranoid personality of his was likely a result of his Yin spiritual root attribute.

In fact, Chi Zhao also felt that something was wrong with him, but he didn’t want to endure, and he didn’t want to control himself. Every second that passed in this world was one second less of his time left. He didn’t care about others or about himself. In the limited time remaining, he must use all means to get what he wanted, because this was his last chance.

At first, he would pretend to grunt in pain for a while but later, he sat on the bed expressionlessly watching the blood trickle down as he mentally took note of how much time passed.

Lin Changfeng came very quickly. He originally wasn’t far away and had left some of his divine senses behind with Chi Zhao. The divine senses were not enough to allow him to see what was happening around Chi Zhao, but it allowed him to quickly judge Chi Zhao’s state. The moment he noticed that Chi Zhao’s state didn’t seem normal, he threw the elders aside and rushed over.

Landing in the middle of the yard, a faint smell of blood instantly reached his nose. Lin Changfeng anxiously walked over. With a wave of his sleeves, the door was opened by a force of wind and Chi Zhao looked over.

Seeing Lin Changfeng’s shocked expression, Chi Zhao raised his arm to show him his wound, “Senior brother, look, I’m injured.”

Lin Changfeng’s pupils constricted. Seeing the relaxed smile on Chi Zhao’s face, for a moment, he found breathing to be difficult.

……..

It was different from last time. The last time Chi Zhao was injured, it was due to Lin Changfeng’s sword. His sword was a rare artifact that would only appear every thousand or so years and, once hit by it, it was hard to recover. Chi Zhao had hurt himself this time using a normal spirit sword so he didn’t even need to apply medicinal powder. As long as he used a small healing technique, that wound would soon be gone.

Chi Zhao also knew this and that was why he dared to make such a rash decision. His purpose was to force Lin Changfeng out, not to kill himself. He really valued his life so he wouldn’t commit suicide so easily.

After Lin Changfeng recovered from his initial shock, his expression was dark. Chi Zhao took this in but he wasn’t afraid at all.

If Lin Changfeng hadn’t reacted at all, that was when he would be afraid. Seeing him so angry right now, that was the reaction Chi Zhao wanted to see.

It meant that Lin Changfeng still cared about him and that was why he was so angry when he saw that he had hurt himself.

Although the wound was gone, the blood that was shed wouldn’t be able to be restored in such a short period of time. After the rapid loss of blood, Chi Zhao’s face had turned pale, but he still looked at Lin Changfeng with a smile. Green veins were clearly bulging out on Lin Changfeng’s forehead.

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The last time he was this angry was when he was still a young man and he wasn’t mature enough yet. His peers had deliberately angered him, and he had fallen for their trickery and gotten into a fight. That was however more than six hundred years ago. He was no longer the same young man as back then and he had long lost his youthful mindset.

The anger he had not experienced for a very long time filled his heart. He suppressed the thoughts in him and fed Chi Zhao a blood-restoring pill. Chi Zhao was really obedient at this moment and ate whatever he gave him. Once he was done, he even raised his head and smiled at him.

But Lin Changfeng didn’t pay him any attention.

He looked down at Chi Zhao with a stern expression, “Who taught you to do this?”

Like almost all parents, once they find out that their child had made a mistake, they subconsciously wanted to find an excuse for them. They would often think that perhaps it wasn’t their child’s fault. Perhaps someone had instigated them.

But Chi Zhao just blinked a few times and shook his head, “No one taught me.”

Lin Changfeng was at loss for words. He immediately spoke angrily, “Your body is a gift from our parents. Do you think your parents will be happy knowing that you’re doing this?!”

No matter what Lin Changfeng said, Chi Zhao was still the same as before. Lin Changfeng felt that he would he angered to death by him. He stared at Chi Zhao for several long seconds and then closed his mouth and stopped lecturing him.

A touch of disappointment flashed across his face. That change was clearly noticed by Chi Zhao. Chi Zhao’s originally devil may care expression froze for a moment and the smile on his lips faded a little.

Chi Zhao looked fixatedly at Lin Changfeng. His voice was calm, “Senior brother, why aren’t you asking me why I’m doing this?”

Lin Changfeng’s gaze fell onto a vase placed in the corner of the room. He pursed his lips shut and didn’t answer.

Some things didn’t have to spoken explicitly. As long as it was hinted, both parties can tacitly understand. Lin Changfeng had thought that what he did was enough, so he took the initiative to leave Chi Zhao’s side and give him and that person called Mochen some space.

He hoped that Chi Zhao could develop some good feelings towards that person, but he didn’t want Chi Zhao to really fall in love with that person.

That thought of his was too contradictory and too demanding for the other person. It was however what Lin Changfeng thought.

He wanted this youngest junior brother to be like the other junior brothers. He wanted him to like more things and not only have him in his eyes.

No one understood Lin Changfeng’s thoughts, even Lin Changfeng himself.

Can’t let go, can’t hold on, can’t leave it alone, can’t stand by idly.

Chi Zhao was very talented. If he wanted to, many cultivators would discover him and even fall for him, just like Yu Mochen. He had just come to the main peak to pass on some messages from his master. The time he was here was less than a stick of incense and the time he saw Chi Zhao was no more than an instant.

But in just that short instant, Chi Zhao managed to completely enter his heart and imprint himself onto it.

He was just that good. If he really had feelings for another person, no one would be able to resist it. This was just like Lin Changfeng himself who was a living example.

If things developed according to his plan, he wouldn’t he happy. If things didn’t develop according to his plan, he still wouldn’t be happy. In order to force him to show up, Chi Zhao had deliberately hurt himself. This was definitely not a method normal people would think of. Normal people wouldn’t be this ruthless, let alone be this ruthless to themselves.

So……

Before reaching a conclusion, Chi Zhao suddenly stood up. He raised his head slightly and stared at Lin Changfeng with his pair of bright eyes.

“Why won’t you talk?”

Chi Zhao looked a little aggressive at this moment. He had endured it for two years and he had waited patiently for two years, but now, he couldn’t do it anymore.

In the past, no matter how insurmountable the gap between them was, no matter how deep the hatred was, this person was able to quickly fall in love with him and treat him sincerely. This time, there was nothing between them; they hadn’t met before and he hadn’t harmed him. Why was it that he still didn’t dare move this relationship along?

Chi Zhao really didn’t understand. He wasn’t stupid. Even if Lin Changfeng hid it well, they had shared the same place for two years and he could tell that Lin Changfeng cared about him.

Chi Zhao didn’t know whether that concern he felt for him had turned into the feeling of love one would have towards their lover, but he was certain that Lin Changfeng felt something towards him. Even if it wasn’t to the extent of liking him, it shouldn’t be like how it was recently, not sparing him a single glance.

For a whole month, he didn’t see him or talk to him. Does he know how important time was to him right now?

“Give me a reason. Tell me, why are you avoiding me?”

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Chi Zhao’s almost icy expression was like a sharp knife. It made a small hole in Lin Changfeng’s heart. It didn’t bleed much, but it hurt badly.

However, after living for so many years, he had long learned how to hide his emotions. There was no change in his expression and he just silently pursed his lips and looked away, “I’m not avoiding you. I am in charge of the sect on behalf of master and am originally very busy.”

A snort made Lin Changfeng’s body stiffen.

He looked back and saw Chi Zhao laughing out in anger, “So that’s it.”

After the last word was spoken, the smile on Chi Zhao’s face was gone. His eyes were extremely cold, and his words were filled with sharp edges, “Since you’re so busy every day, am I not going to see you next month too? It doesn’t matter. Starting from today, as long as you don’t come and see me for a day, I will cut myself with the sword once. Don’t you know how to heal wounds? After I cut myself, you come and help me. Even if you don’t come, I won’t find anyone else. Either you come and see me, or you can watch me bleed to death.”

Those words were too ridiculous, especially the last line. As soon as it was spoken, Lin Changfeng’s heart felt like it was about to be broken into pieces. He had restrained himself so that Chi Zhao could live longer but what was he saying now?

Watch him bleed to death?

The colour on Lin Changfeng’s face was gone. He couldn’t help but take a step forward. His hands were clenched tightly into fists and after a long period of silence, he opened his mouth and spoke with a low and repressed voice, “Don’t say those kinds of words to me again.”

Chi Zhao didn’t feel good seeing him like this but what came out of his mouth was another cruel line, “Alright, I won’t say it. You can see with your own eyes whether or not I can do it.”

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KK has something to say:
Yikes…..Chi Zhao is definitely affected by this Yin spiritual root isn’t he 😫