Chapter 29: Abandoned Hospital (13)

In the hospital in the middle of the night, everything was silent. The boys’ ward was completely dark with only faint moonlight entering the room through the window coating everything with a light silver glimmer.


The young boy let out a soft moan. His eyes were wet and coated in a layer of tears as he sat on Xie Yuan Huai’s lap and had his arms wrapped around the other persons neck. He did his best trying to keep up with the passionate and deep kiss.

Xie Yuan Huai may look cold but when he kissed the boy, it was like he wanted to eat him up and it was especially passionate. He held onto the boys’ waist and brought him down with him onto the bed. He rolled around and pressed him down onto the bed while continuing to kiss him for a very long time. It was only until the boy began to struggle weakly did he let him go.

“Huff, huff………..”

The boys face was flushed red and his lips were kissed to the point that there was a thin layer of moisture over it. He laid limply on the bed gasping for air.

Xie Yuan Huai’s eyes darkened a little and he once again moved in to kiss it. It made the boy shrink and gently push him away with a red face. With a small voice he said: “Please don’t………I can’t do it anymore……..”

“You don’t like it?” The handsome man murmured. “If you don’t want to, I won’t touch you like this anymore.”


Hearing him say that, the boy couldn’t help but pull at his clothes. With a voice as soft as melted honey, he said shyly: “It’s not that I don’t like it………”

“Good boy.”

Xie Yuan Huai kissed his face and his lips curved up slightly to reveal a faint smile.

When he smiled, it was like ice and snow had melted and it looked extremely good. The boy looked at him in daze. When he returned to his senses, he found himself once again being pressed down and kissed. Mmm, brother Yuan Huai always seduces him like this but every time he can’t refuse it……


“Like this, you won’t be afraid right?”

Xie Yuan Huai held the boy that had been kissed until his whole body had become weak in his arms. With his cold fingers, he gently touched the youth’s red ears and once again gently planted a soft kiss on his forehead.


The youth’s face was completely red.

He clearly just wanted brother Yuan Huai to accompany him. With him here, he would not be afraid…….His intentions were very pure but brother Yuan Huai always, always……..

But he didn’t move to finish his words. He knew that if he refuted him, brother Yuan Huai would definitely ask him again if it’s because he doesn’t like it.

He couldn’t say that he didn’t like it. In fact, he actually likes to kiss brother Yuan Huai. He just didn’t want it to be so intense.

What’s more, he also didn’t want to reject brother Yuan Huai. After all, he had gone through the trouble to stay with him in the middle of the night because he heard that he would be too scared to sleep at night because of the ghost stories he had heard from the nurse sisters during the day.

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However, he remembered that brother Yuan Huai was hospitalised because of a heart condition. If he didn’t sleep at night and accompanied him, would his body be alright……………?

“It’s okay.” Xie Yuan Huai gently ruffled his soft hair. He said, “I won’t force myself. You don’t have to worry.”

“Really? That’s good…..”

The youth blinked his eyes and asked curiously: “Brother Yuan Huai, you don’t get scared coming from your ward to mine?”

He recalled the ghost stories that the nurses had told him during the day. Things like the man-eating monster in the sewer, the red-clothed woman’s corpse in the mortuary…. He looked over at the door and couldn’t help but shrink. He felt like something would appear from behind that dark door. With a pair of bloody hands, it would gently push the door open……

He once again couldn’t help but shrink into Xie Yuan Huai’s arms.

“I don’t.” Xie Yuan Huai’s tone was very calm. “There are no such things in the hospital.”

“It would be great it that’s the case.” The boy muttered. “Brother Yuan Huai, do you think ghosts really exist in this world?”


Xie Yuan Huai’s movement stiffened a little.

“What does Xiao Chu think?”

“I don’t know…….I hope it doesn’t. I’m scared.”

Xie Yuan Huai fell silent for a moment. He then said: “You can’t accept the existence of ghosts?”

“I probably can’t.” The youth thought about it and added. “But it might not necessarily be the case. After all, I have never seen a ghost before so I don’t know what kind of reaction I would have when I do see one.”

Xie Yuan Hua made a soft sound of acknowledgement, but he didn’t say anything. With his company, the boy felt a lot more relieved and he gradually fell asleep.

In a half-asleep state, he faintly felt a hand patting him softly and a gentle, low voice next to his ear.


The next day, the boy slowly woke up and opened his eyes in confusion.

The room was well illuminated with the bright sunlight coming in from the windows but Xie Yuan Huai could not be found.


The boy held a bunch of snacks in his arms. With an excited expression, he hopped onto the elevator and went from the eight floor to the fourth floor where cardiology patients resided.

It had always been brother Yuan Huai going to his ward to visit him or them meeting at their usual place in the courtyard. Until now, he had not had the chance to go and visit brother Yuan Huai’s ward.

Today the nurse sister gave him some snacks that he felt was particularly delicious. He couldn’t wait to share it with brother Yuan Huai but he wasn’t sure if patients with heart conditions were allowed to have them, so he wanted to ask about it first……

The boy got off the elevator and went straight to the nurse station on the fourth floor. He didn’t know Xie Yuan Huai’s ward number. Even after asking him multiple times, Xie Yuan Huai never told him. Even the fact that he was hospitalised because of a heart condition was something that the boy had to elicit out from him with great difficulty.

“Hello nurse sister.”

The young boy’s eyes sparkled, and he smiled brightly: “I want to ask about a patient. He is called Xie Yuan Hai. Which ward does he live in?”

“Xie Yuan Huai? I’ll check for you.” The nurse’s attitude was very kind, “How do you write his name?”

“Thank you, sister.” The youth smiled. “It’s Xie in thanks, Yuan in far and Huai as in the Huai River.”

The nurse pulled up the registration list on the computer and searched through it. She shook her head and said to the boy: “Did you remember the name wrong or get the floor wrong? We don’t have anyone called Xie Yuan Huai here.”

“How can that be……” The boy blinked a few times. With some disbelief he said: “But he is called Xie Yuan Huai….”

“I just searched for the ‘Xie’ surname and no patient turned up.” The nurse said. “Maybe you can try the other floors.”

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The boy nodded his head a little dejectedly. He went through all seven floors of the inpatient department and even checked the eight floor where he stayed but there was no one with the name “Xie Yuan Huai.” There weren’t even names with similar pronunciations.

“Could it be that brother Yuan Hua’s name is just a pseudonym?”

He was very confused. He couldn’t understand this: “But why would brother Yuan Huai lie to me. It doesn’t make sense…..”

“What does he look like?”

The nurse on the eight floor was close to him and enthusiastically wanted to help. She asked with concern: “Tell me and I’ll help you ask around.”

“He looks very good. He’s tall and thin, and his skin is very pale. The most handsome person in this hospital will definitely be him.”

The boy said calmly. He then suddenly thought of something. He smacked his head and said:

“That’s right. Brother Yuan Huai wears a different hospital gown. His one is white.” He looked down at his light blue hospital gown. “The style is also a little different. The hospital logo is on the right hand side, not the left.”

“Huh……..?” The nurse was very surprised. “That type of hospital gown was from many years ago and we have stopped using it for a long time already. All the patients now should be wearing the same gown that you are. How can there be someone wearing those clothes?”

She found it very strange. At this moment, a senior nurse walked by. She stopped the nurse and explained the situation first before asking:

“……..So are there still patients wearing the old style hospital gowns?”

The senior nurses’ expression changed slightly and she moved to ask the boy: “You’re saying that the person you’re looking for is called Xie Yuan Huai?”

“Yes…..” The boy was a little upset. “But it might just be a pseudonym.”

“……….I don’t know who you are looking for but there was a patient called Xie Yuan Huai that stayed at this hospital in the past who had a congenital heart disease.”

The senior nurse had a complicated expression.

“I used to take care of him but that was from many years ago.”

“He has been dead for a long time now.”


The boy’s face went pale.

His gaze passed through the nurse and he saw a white figure appear in the corridor.

The handsome young man was watching him with a complicated look.

The boy recalled the man’s cold body temperature, the fact that people around him would ignore him, how he would appear in the middle of the night without making a single sound and that strange appearance of his——-

His pupils suddenly constricted.

………..A ghost.

His brother Yuan Huai is a ghost.

“Xiao Chu………..”

Xie Yuan Huai quietly whispered the boy’s name. He seemingly wanted to get closer, but the boy took a few steps back with a pale expression before suddenly turning around and fleeing.


Xie Yuan Huai lowered his eyes and he quietly stood in the same place. For a long time, he didn’t move.

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In the middle of the night when the ward was completely quiet, the boy laid in bed staring at the ceiling. He didn’t have even a little hint of drowsiness within him.

Today, brother Yuan Huai didn’t come to find him.

He’s gone.

The boy’s eyes started to turn wet and tears rolled down his cheeks onto his pillow.

A few days ago, when he suddenly realised that brother Yuan Huai was a ghost, he was very scared, and he couldn’t help but run away. Afterwards, he immediately regretted this action of his. Although brother Yuan Huai was a ghost, he had not done anything that could hurt him. On the contrary, he treated him very carefully and gently. So what if brother Yuan Huai is a ghost?

However, his actions must have hurt brother Yuan Huai’s feelings. Since that day, he had not appeared before him.

What should I do……What should I do to get brother Yuan Huai back……..

The boy buried his head in his pillow and his shoulders trembled slightly. A soft whimper could be heard.

“Gurgle, gurgle…..gugu………..”

At this moment, he suddenly heard a strange sound coming from the bathroom in his room.

What’s that sound? Is that brother Yuan Huai? But it doesn’t sound like him………

The boy was a little scared. He put on his slippers, turned on the bedside lamp and cautiously walked over to the bathroom. He leaned against the door and listened to the movements inside.

“Glug, glug………”

That strange sound continued and then, like the flush button was pressed by something, he suddenly heard the sound of the toilet flushing.

This definitely isn’t brother Yuan Huai!

The youth’s face went pale. He suddenly recalled the ghost story about the ‘man-eating monster in the sewer’. No longer able to stay in his room, he immediately opened the door and rushed out to the corridor outside.

So scary……….If ghosts are real then the man-eating monster must also exist!

He stood in the corridor trembling. His hands and feet were cold, and he didn’t know what to do. The nurse on duty saw him come out of his room and walked over with a look of concern: “Zhi Chu, why did you come out? What’s wrong?”


The youth opened and closed his mouth. He didn’t know what he should say to let her believe that he had just seen a monster but at this moment he suddenly saw a bright red figure standing at the end of the corridor.

It was a young woman with messy long hair. Her pale skin was rotting slightly, and she was wearing a blood-red coloured dress. She slowly looked up and stiffly turned her head over to look at him.

It’s the red-clothed woman’s corpse………………. Ghost! There really are ghosts in the hospital! Those legends are true!

“Sister, a ghost. Run!”

The boy was scared to the point that his face was completely void of colour. He grabbed the nurse’s hand and made an attempt to escape but at this moment the elevators in the hospital were not running and it couldn’t be used so he dragged the nurse with him to the stairwell.

“Zhi Chu? Huh?”

The nurse looked back and saw that there wasn’t anything there. She remembered that the young boy had symptoms of schizophrenia and she thought that his illness had played up again. She pulled him back and gently reassured him.

“Don’t be afraid. There are no ghosts in the hospital. See, I’ve been doing night shifts for a so many years now and I’m okay so don’t worry, there really aren’t any ghosts. Take some medicine and go to sleep.”

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“No…….It’s real…….”

The boy was very flustered but, seeing that she wasn’t listening to him, he could only pull at her sleeves and drag her towards the stairwell. During a moment of distraction, he didn’t pay attention to his feet and stepped into air. Like this, he directly fell backwards.

The nurse screamed: “Zhi Chu!”



“Fortunately, Zhi Chu didn’t sustain any serious injuries.”

Doctor Luo gently held the youths head and carefully examined it. He then took the CT scan of his head and looked at it for a long time before shaking his head and saying:

“But because of the impact to the head, for a short time he would be slightly confused and would have more difficulty distinguishing between reality and fantasy. We would need to guide him slowly to help him recover.”

A good-looking woman nodded her head. She looked over at the youth sitting on the bed and slight worry flashed across her eyes: “My child…..will he get better?”

“Please rest assured.” Doctor Luo nodded. “We will do our best to cure him.”

After exchanging a few more words with the young man’s mother, Doctor Luo sat on the bed and pressed his hand onto the boys’ shoulder. With a serious tone he said: “Zhi Chu. Do you believe in me and your mother?”

“……….Of course.”

The boy’s response was a little slow. He then nodded and answered with clear eyes: “Of course I believe in you and my mother.”

“That’s good. We’re telling you that there are no ghosts in this world. You don’t have to be afraid.”

Doctor Luo said: “Those ghosts are just fantasies conjured up by you. This includes Xie Yuan Huai. He has passed away a long time ago. He is not a real person.”

“But………” The boy opened and closed his mouth. He anxiously tried to explain, “Brother Yuan Huai is real………”

“Xiao Chu!”

The woman suddenly walked over with her eyes faintly shedding tears. With a pale face she pulled him into her embrace. She said in an almost pleading tone:

“I’m begging you, please get better soon okay? Do you know how worried mum was when I heard that you fell from the stairs…….Take it as your mum’s heartfelt request……..”

“………….Mum?” The boy who was being hugged by her was a little stunned.

In his memory, his mother would always be busy with work and she almost never cared about him. Because of his sexual orientation, she would rarely smile at him and he had always thought that she didn’t like him.

“You are mum’s precious son. How can mum not like you?”

As if she knew his thoughts, the woman whispered out these words. However, her nature is naturally rather stoic so saying these words was her limit. She couldn’t speak anymore and could only gently rub the boy’s head.

“Mum will change………I’ll spend more time with you. Dad will do the same. He also loves you very much. He’s coming back from abroad to see you and will be back soon. So, for us, you have to get better okay?”


The boy’s eyes were red as he sincerely nodded his head. He hugged her back tightly causing the woman to stiffen up a little. Her heart was filled with a mixture of both joy and sorrow and she couldn’t help but shed a few more tears. Doctor Luo who was standing on the side also revealed a heartfelt smile.


However in the deepest part of the boy’s heart, he didn’t want to believe that Xie Yuan Huai was just an illusion.

He clearly felt so real. He had embraced him, kissed him and relied on him wholeheartedly. He would even accompany him to sleep at night and show him a small but beautiful smile every now and then………..

Someone like brother Yuan Huai, how could he conjure up such a fantasy on his own………?

“Brother Yuan Huai……….”

Alone in his ward, the boy curled up in his bed. Looking thin and weak, he buried half his face in his arms and only revealed a pair of faintly red eyes.

“Doctor Luo said that I can’t differentiate between fantasy and reality so I don’t know anymore whether you really exist……….”

“Please. If you really exist, can you come out and see me? I……….I know I must’ve hurt you a lot that day but I didn’t mean it. Even if you’re a ghost, I like you. Please come out and see me okay?”

No one answered him.

He sat in the ward for a whole day. Until late at night, not a figure appeared.

Perhaps brother Yuan Huai still hasn’t forgiven him.

But what’s more likely was that “brother Yuan Huai” was really just an imaginary figure that he had conjured up.

The boy’s eyes were a little swollen from crying. He was extremely upset but even if he was sad, he understood that he should no longer let himself be immersed in his own fantasies. His mother and father were still waiting for him at home, waiting for him to return back to them.

“In the end you still haven’t appeared………”

He said quietly. His voice was a little hoarse from crying.


“Goodbye brother Yuan Huai.”

The boy closed his eyes, buried his face and shrank into a small ball. His body felt a little cold.

What he couldn’t see was that, standing just beside him was Xie Yuan Huai. He had reached out and wanted to touch him only to see his hand go through the boy’s body.

He had always been by Xiao Chu’s side.

But Xiao Chu could no longer see him and could no longer be touched by him.


He had lost his Xiao Chu.


Bai Yi’s Diary (Part 29)

Bai Yi who has been apart from Cheng Zhi Chu for a long time eventually refused to write his diary entry.

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21 thoughts on “KTCSG – CH29

  1. Blood 22nd September 2019 / 4:38 pm

    Thanks for the chapter! ^ ^

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  2. Smol 22nd September 2019 / 5:41 pm

    Awh i really like bai yi’s diary entries, shame..

    Thanks for the chapter 💕💕💕

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  3. OHtheNovelty 23rd September 2019 / 1:40 am

    Oh dang!! I feel it! I feel shit’s about to hit the fan the next chapter! Now I see why a simple love turned into a crazy, sad obsession. Because Xiao Chu has moved on QAQ

    Also, instead of paranoia, isn’t it more accurate to call what he has as schizophrenia?

    Thanks for the chapter! 😘

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    • KK 23rd September 2019 / 8:36 am

      Yeah, literal translation was along the lines of paranoia/delusion but I think schizophrenia sounds better. I’ll change it when I’m home.
      Thanks so much for the suggestion!

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  4. kitsuna009 23rd September 2019 / 11:24 am

    Thank you for the chapter

    Liked by 1 person

  5. Haruki Natsuyu 23rd September 2019 / 11:16 pm

    Why? Why,plot? Why, author?! If only original CZC could still see XYH then they could have HE!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭 why the heck did CZC lost his ability to see XYH?! WHY?! 😭😭😭😭😭 am i too much to wish every ML/boss of each world have their own CZC?! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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  6. Worldwide handsome Jin 16th October 2019 / 7:24 pm

    Uh oh then here was when boss blackened to kill everyone in the hospital…
    Bai yi on the side jelly how much screen time his soul fragment is getting

    Thanks for the chapter!

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  7. penumbra 3rd January 2020 / 12:02 pm

    QAQ I was tearing up when I remembered that those memories might only be part of the instance.
    Author why? 😭😭😭😭

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    • lesbian sailor moon 16th June 2020 / 5:28 pm

      and in that moment all our hearts collectively broke for yuan huai gege


  8. Ritsunou 22nd April 2020 / 7:44 pm

    Bro… THIS IS SO SAD 😭 The first level was actually scary but the abandoned hospital…😭😭I’m weak when it comes to children and death I don’t play with that. I’m actually crying and I cannot believe that Xie Yuan Huai cant touch Xiao Chu’s anymore Xiao Chu’s is here telling him to come out but he was always there it’s just that Xiao Chu’s cant see him no more 😭😭😭IM SO SAD 😭 I KNEW SOMETHING SAD WOILD HAPPENED BC IT INVOLVES A HOSPITAL AND CHILDREN DYING IM OUT YEET

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  9. S.L 4th June 2020 / 6:30 pm

    So sad!!!😭 thank you for the chapter


  10. Senpai 28th June 2021 / 6:59 am

    Ah, this story is really worth getting its own novel. It has potential for lots of angst if done with good development and in the end, give it a HE. This soul fragment deserves to be with MC too in other instances like Bai Yi. I’d have liked it if soul fragments were given equal rights and spend time with MC like Bai Yi does. XD


  11. Luca1864 28th October 2021 / 4:40 am

    … (´_`。) *sniff*


  12. Phobos 17th March 2022 / 12:07 pm

    How does Bai Yi even write in his diary? Hahaha I just have this image in my head where he would stop walking and write in a corner hahahahaha

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  13. Phobos 17th March 2022 / 12:07 pm

    How does Bai Yi even write in his diary? Hahaha I just have this image in my head where he would stop walking and write in a corner hahahahaha


  14. cynicalreader 1st May 2022 / 9:40 pm



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